Last week I realized I needed a serious attitude adjustment... All my thoughts of the future had a negative edge to them! I'm never going to finish everything I need to finish before the baby comes. Where are all my family members going to stay? It's going to be so lame to give birth in a hospital instead of at home. We don't even have a good name for the little guy. What if the baby comes late and JM has to leave for a Radiant trip before I'm ready for him to? This whole labor thing is going to be terrible. Blah blah blah blah...
Yeah. All negative. It was totally weighing me down! The Lord had to come in and lift up my eyes to see that He has GOOD plans for me! That He has multitudes of thoughts toward me (Ps 139) and they are of PEACE and not of evil (Jer 29:11)! I so want to live a life of faith and expectancy. One filled with the knowledge of His ever-Presence, His goodness toward me, and the joy of being near Him.
Maybe everything isn't going to be so bad after all. Maybe my future is destined to be full of joy and peace, and maybe He will actually be WITH me through the whole process of delivering this child. Can God be in a hospital, too? Of course!!! Silly Han.
Ah, the power of renewing one's mind with the Word of God...
